Getting Excited

So the concept high schools over is finally setting in for me. And as much as Im dreading a very very close friend of mine who has became more than a friend in the last two months or so leaving the first week of August I think I finally might be okay with it. Basic is going to bother me tho, not talking to him for that long. Anyhow I am finally getting excited for college, everything and until now I have just kind of not been thinking about it. It has a lot to do with I didn't want to think about Scott leaving, but I have kind of figured out hes not really ever going to be gone from my life when hes on breaks I will see him and he is the one person I trust completely which goes to say something. Yeah I am going to cry when he leaves; and yah I'm going to be there when he gets back. I know who my friends are and I know no matter how far away from eachother we are we are still together. Honestly and the concept of dating versus friends is weird all in itself, if you would have asked me a couple of months ago what we were I would have sworn up and down we were just friends and wouldnt be anything more. Now? We aren't dating, we probally wont he leaves in a month, and yet it doesn't really matter a whole lot that we aren't. He tells me absolutely everything, even if I don't care to know that that girl has a nice set of boobs or something like that but thats how we are. Hes made it apparent to me that I don't have to worry about him leaving; and yeah I still am but I have figured out enough that I can still look forward to college myself too.